Hey everyone!
There's so much to tell and so hard to articulate it all!! Right now the team and I are at the airport in Atlanta. Out flight leaves at 730pm.
Training camp has truly been a blessing. It has been amazing to connect with my team. HHS by the grace of god we can goof off and talk about poop then be completely vulnerable and honest about our walks with god and how we feel about Africa. Wow it's been so good! Worship has been off the wall! It's so real and raw-ha like it should be. We have learned to listen to God and it's been so cool to hear what he has to say to us.
He is breaking down walls an loving on us so much already! I'm so thankful and blessed!
Ah so mch to say and hard t write it all out.
Praise god for just sitting under the stars and singing worship song because we can and for laying hands on one another because we want to! Jesus is doing so much!!!
Keep praying!!!!!
Love y'all
Monday, June 25, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Friday is the big day
Well, just two days away and I'll continue further in this journey to Africa!!!!!
God already knew from the moment he breathed life in me that I would go to Swaziland. The team and I are going on purpose- ad that's JESUS! I'm my going to change Swaziland I'm going to love. I simply desire to sit in the dirt with children to hold them and whisper in there ear that they're loved!!!!
I am so honored and humbled that God picked me, Laura Beth Harbin from Murfreesboro Tennessee to go to Swaziland for 4 weeks to simply learn about the love of jesus from the orphaned,widowed, and diseased.
Words don't express my excitement and anxiousness!
I pray to be emptied only to be filled with Jesus!
More of Jesus, less of me.
I'm thankful for all who have kept up with me, encouraged me, supported me financially, and most of all for the prayers! It's finally here and happening!!!!
If I don't get to update this a whole lot-no worries we have a team blog that our team leaders will post on saying we made it safely and other details like that-so feel free to keep your eye out for that! :)
I love y'all and thanks so much! Please pray pray pray!
More of Jesus, less of me.
Laura Beth Harbin
Here's the link to Swazi team blog.
http://swaziland-hs.adventures.org/
God already knew from the moment he breathed life in me that I would go to Swaziland. The team and I are going on purpose- ad that's JESUS! I'm my going to change Swaziland I'm going to love. I simply desire to sit in the dirt with children to hold them and whisper in there ear that they're loved!!!!
I am so honored and humbled that God picked me, Laura Beth Harbin from Murfreesboro Tennessee to go to Swaziland for 4 weeks to simply learn about the love of jesus from the orphaned,widowed, and diseased.
Words don't express my excitement and anxiousness!
I pray to be emptied only to be filled with Jesus!
More of Jesus, less of me.
I'm thankful for all who have kept up with me, encouraged me, supported me financially, and most of all for the prayers! It's finally here and happening!!!!
If I don't get to update this a whole lot-no worries we have a team blog that our team leaders will post on saying we made it safely and other details like that-so feel free to keep your eye out for that! :)
I love y'all and thanks so much! Please pray pray pray!
More of Jesus, less of me.
Laura Beth Harbin
Here's the link to Swazi team blog.
http://swaziland-hs.adventures.org/
Sunday, June 10, 2012
ONLY JESUS
Can you believe it??? I leave in just 12 days!! It seems so bizzare.
I know that I have probably told you this a million times, but just to reitterate, this blog is meant to be raw and honest. I never want to sugar coat whats going on. Its totally okay to feel any way whether its immense anger, deep sorrow, outrageous joy, are anything in between.
Today I felt a mixture of all of these, even the in betweens. To be honest I'm still wrestiling with it which is why I'm blogging. It's my way of taking the things within and getting them out.
Some know about my trip to Haiti last year and others don't....
To give a brief overview....I have always had a desire for 3rd world missions. There have been certain instances in my life where that desire was made clearer. however, when i went to Haiti last year it became more than clear that this was my desire, but that its my life and my very being. I remember always praying "Lord break my heart for what breaks yours." He's always faithful....He is breaking my heart for what breaks His....
My heart is BREAKING!!!!
I expereinced several emotions since being home from Haiti and preparing for Africa. In fact as I prepare for Africa I am brought back to the things God taught me through the eyes of the Haitians.
One of those Haitians that God taught me through was a little boy named Jivens. Those who know me most have heard me talk about him and if they havent heard me talk to them well then i was obviously jacked up on coffee or down right tired.
Anyway, so here we are one year later and the youth group went back to the same village in Haiti. Thats where Jivens is at this very moment...Guitton, Haiti.
It absolutely tore me to pieces knowing that I couldn't go to Haiti this year. I miss Jivens voice and the way he looked with his eyes. I miss his mannerisms and how he was always shy except when I was around. Just typing this makes me miss him so much.
Anyway, my friend who went to Haiti made a video of him and I can not help but replay it over and over and over and over again. I just want to keep hearing his voice. Each time i play it i wish i was back in haiti more than anything to hug his sweet neck.
But I'm here.
Through this year and through missing Jivens so much God has shown me that Murfreesboro and the people in front of me are just as in need as Jivens in Haiti. The people I drive past, walk past, and see out of the corner of my eye are each as valuable as Jivens.
The deep compassion I have for Jivens should be for each person I see. Compassion and Love should never be conditional. But rather, unconditional.
I want to love each person the same that i have immensely loved Jivens. To do so Jesus has to become greater in me. and for that I simply need be still before Him and rest in His love...
okay I'm about to go on a rant...speaking of resting in his love.
People have asked how i've prepared for africa and if im prepared. I believe there is no 6 step process to preparing for a 3rd world country...there's is NO way!!! No matter what each person's experience is going to be something that only them and God truly know because it is such a deep work in the heart that can not be explained.
So the way i answer is simple...Yes I'm as prepared as i can be. I believe in Jesus who lives in me. Because Jesus lives in me I simply rest in His love and allow Him to do His thing. I have Jesus and he has me...what more do i need to do to prepare?? haha
It's only Jesus. It's only jesus. It's only JESUS!!!!!!
Another thing...Jesus has shown me that it's so easy to put the needs of people or countries above Him. It's easy for me to put Jivens above God. I don't want to do that. I want to Love Jesus more because when i love jesus more then i can love jivens and the people i will meet in swazi that much more!
A fear of mine is that I will place expectations from my experience in Haiti onto my trip to Swaziland. I do not want to do that at all. I want Haiti to be a past memory that has a place in my heart and has changed me but doesnt hinder me! I want to be completely present in Swaziland.
I simply pray for more of jesus and less of me. I can do nothing of my own. I can not stop fearing and stop being upset, i can not stop puttin jivens as an idol above God. I can't do it at all. It's christ in me!!! Christ IN me!! I need simply abide in Him. To cling to Jesus and rest in His love and grace as he becomes more and i become less. And as He begins to be above all else and be my reason for going and living and breathing. As i rest in His love, His love will cast out any fear and any ungodly motivation or action upon an emotion. ONLY JESUS!!!
I feel like I'm done writing for now and I have no idea what I have written until i read back over it later. All i know is that I have written was has come to mind and what the Lord is so graciously speaking to me.
"Oh daughter, I'm all you need. Let me be your everything. When you let go, you gain more because you gain me. Let go and allow me to become more in you so that you can love my people as I have loved you, touch my people as i have touched you. Just abide in me, cling to me, rest in me my beloved princess in whom i delight in. You are doing well just as you are. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. I am doing a work in you that is for the world to see so that they see me. Hold fast to me. Trust me. Only I can satisy and comfort and heal. So let me do that, you must drop your nets to come follow me. You can't take them with you. Leave the old and come to newness. Come to me my child. Let me love you and teach you. Stare into each person's eyes and see me-they hunger and thirst for life that only I can offer. You can offer that because of me in you. Trust me. Cling to me. Abide.
Let me love you more so that you can love me more to love my people as I have loved you."
This is what Jesus just spoke to me.
Love,
Laura Beth Harbin
I know that I have probably told you this a million times, but just to reitterate, this blog is meant to be raw and honest. I never want to sugar coat whats going on. Its totally okay to feel any way whether its immense anger, deep sorrow, outrageous joy, are anything in between.
Today I felt a mixture of all of these, even the in betweens. To be honest I'm still wrestiling with it which is why I'm blogging. It's my way of taking the things within and getting them out.
Some know about my trip to Haiti last year and others don't....
To give a brief overview....I have always had a desire for 3rd world missions. There have been certain instances in my life where that desire was made clearer. however, when i went to Haiti last year it became more than clear that this was my desire, but that its my life and my very being. I remember always praying "Lord break my heart for what breaks yours." He's always faithful....He is breaking my heart for what breaks His....
My heart is BREAKING!!!!
I expereinced several emotions since being home from Haiti and preparing for Africa. In fact as I prepare for Africa I am brought back to the things God taught me through the eyes of the Haitians.
One of those Haitians that God taught me through was a little boy named Jivens. Those who know me most have heard me talk about him and if they havent heard me talk to them well then i was obviously jacked up on coffee or down right tired.
Anyway, so here we are one year later and the youth group went back to the same village in Haiti. Thats where Jivens is at this very moment...Guitton, Haiti.
It absolutely tore me to pieces knowing that I couldn't go to Haiti this year. I miss Jivens voice and the way he looked with his eyes. I miss his mannerisms and how he was always shy except when I was around. Just typing this makes me miss him so much.
Anyway, my friend who went to Haiti made a video of him and I can not help but replay it over and over and over and over again. I just want to keep hearing his voice. Each time i play it i wish i was back in haiti more than anything to hug his sweet neck.
But I'm here.
Through this year and through missing Jivens so much God has shown me that Murfreesboro and the people in front of me are just as in need as Jivens in Haiti. The people I drive past, walk past, and see out of the corner of my eye are each as valuable as Jivens.
The deep compassion I have for Jivens should be for each person I see. Compassion and Love should never be conditional. But rather, unconditional.
I want to love each person the same that i have immensely loved Jivens. To do so Jesus has to become greater in me. and for that I simply need be still before Him and rest in His love...
okay I'm about to go on a rant...speaking of resting in his love.
People have asked how i've prepared for africa and if im prepared. I believe there is no 6 step process to preparing for a 3rd world country...there's is NO way!!! No matter what each person's experience is going to be something that only them and God truly know because it is such a deep work in the heart that can not be explained.
So the way i answer is simple...Yes I'm as prepared as i can be. I believe in Jesus who lives in me. Because Jesus lives in me I simply rest in His love and allow Him to do His thing. I have Jesus and he has me...what more do i need to do to prepare?? haha
It's only Jesus. It's only jesus. It's only JESUS!!!!!!
Another thing...Jesus has shown me that it's so easy to put the needs of people or countries above Him. It's easy for me to put Jivens above God. I don't want to do that. I want to Love Jesus more because when i love jesus more then i can love jivens and the people i will meet in swazi that much more!
A fear of mine is that I will place expectations from my experience in Haiti onto my trip to Swaziland. I do not want to do that at all. I want Haiti to be a past memory that has a place in my heart and has changed me but doesnt hinder me! I want to be completely present in Swaziland.
I simply pray for more of jesus and less of me. I can do nothing of my own. I can not stop fearing and stop being upset, i can not stop puttin jivens as an idol above God. I can't do it at all. It's christ in me!!! Christ IN me!! I need simply abide in Him. To cling to Jesus and rest in His love and grace as he becomes more and i become less. And as He begins to be above all else and be my reason for going and living and breathing. As i rest in His love, His love will cast out any fear and any ungodly motivation or action upon an emotion. ONLY JESUS!!!
I feel like I'm done writing for now and I have no idea what I have written until i read back over it later. All i know is that I have written was has come to mind and what the Lord is so graciously speaking to me.
"Oh daughter, I'm all you need. Let me be your everything. When you let go, you gain more because you gain me. Let go and allow me to become more in you so that you can love my people as I have loved you, touch my people as i have touched you. Just abide in me, cling to me, rest in me my beloved princess in whom i delight in. You are doing well just as you are. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. I am doing a work in you that is for the world to see so that they see me. Hold fast to me. Trust me. Only I can satisy and comfort and heal. So let me do that, you must drop your nets to come follow me. You can't take them with you. Leave the old and come to newness. Come to me my child. Let me love you and teach you. Stare into each person's eyes and see me-they hunger and thirst for life that only I can offer. You can offer that because of me in you. Trust me. Cling to me. Abide.
Let me love you more so that you can love me more to love my people as I have loved you."
This is what Jesus just spoke to me.
Love,
Laura Beth Harbin
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Update on Some Details
19 More days!!!! I can't wait until the single digits!!!!
Anywho, I thought it best to give yall an update on the trip! I now know that I will be at training camp from june 22-25 in Gainsville, Gerorgia and fly out from atlanta on the 25th. I'm very glad to have a 3 day training camp so that my teammates and i can ease into Africa rather than just being thrown into an unkown country. haha
So i fly out the 25th at 7:30 pm and will arrive in johannesburg, south africa on june 26th around 630 pm. from there we will drive to swaziland which is about a 4 hour drive.
We will be staying in two different places. Manzini and Nsoko(they are about one hour apart). Both have beds, one has toilets and showers and the other has a bucket and pit toilets ha.
We will be doing a variety of relational ministry such as visiting families, loving on children, serving at care points, etc.
I am so so thrilled for the opprotunity ahead that I get to partake in for a month.
Please continue to pray fo myself and my teammates as we prepare and are experiencing several emotions leading up to Swaziland!!.
Here are there names so that you can specifically pray for each of them.
Jamie, Ally, Emily, Samantha, Jess, Katherine, Kayla, Riley, Courtney, Ami, Millie, and Anna. Also there are three other people(2 girls and 1 boy) that are on the team that we don't know yet. Pray for them as well.
Also, these are out team leaders names. Pray also for them as they lead us: Katie, Ryan, and Krista.
Thanks so much for all of the prayers and encouragement!! God is teaching me so much recently and is renewing, refining, and showing me more and more grace every day.
I've enjoyed conversations with people about preparing, both with my teammates, family, and best friend. It's been cool to see them give insight from the outside looking in and I've gotten so much out of it!
Keep the prayers comin'
Love,
LB
Anywho, I thought it best to give yall an update on the trip! I now know that I will be at training camp from june 22-25 in Gainsville, Gerorgia and fly out from atlanta on the 25th. I'm very glad to have a 3 day training camp so that my teammates and i can ease into Africa rather than just being thrown into an unkown country. haha
So i fly out the 25th at 7:30 pm and will arrive in johannesburg, south africa on june 26th around 630 pm. from there we will drive to swaziland which is about a 4 hour drive.
We will be staying in two different places. Manzini and Nsoko(they are about one hour apart). Both have beds, one has toilets and showers and the other has a bucket and pit toilets ha.
We will be doing a variety of relational ministry such as visiting families, loving on children, serving at care points, etc.
I am so so thrilled for the opprotunity ahead that I get to partake in for a month.
Please continue to pray fo myself and my teammates as we prepare and are experiencing several emotions leading up to Swaziland!!.
Here are there names so that you can specifically pray for each of them.
Jamie, Ally, Emily, Samantha, Jess, Katherine, Kayla, Riley, Courtney, Ami, Millie, and Anna. Also there are three other people(2 girls and 1 boy) that are on the team that we don't know yet. Pray for them as well.
Also, these are out team leaders names. Pray also for them as they lead us: Katie, Ryan, and Krista.
Thanks so much for all of the prayers and encouragement!! God is teaching me so much recently and is renewing, refining, and showing me more and more grace every day.
I've enjoyed conversations with people about preparing, both with my teammates, family, and best friend. It's been cool to see them give insight from the outside looking in and I've gotten so much out of it!
Keep the prayers comin'
Love,
LB
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Jesus kept me awake at 3am to love me.
Hey so it's about 230 am here and I haven't been able to sleep. Actually the past month I have been waking up during the night. I can't help but think that it's because jesus wants to speak to me. Tonight he has been tellin me that his love is like floating in an ocean. Its so big and I can be immersed in it.its so strong yet so gentle. His love is big for me and it has never failed. It never will fail. It never ends.
Its deeper than anyone even knows. Once i step into his love its uncomfortable because its new and different. I think i should step out but its not the same anymore so i step back in. As i get more comfortable there with my toes wet then i can go deeper to my ankles and so on and si forth. His love is deeper still. Once i think ive had it all he takes me deeper into his love.
His love isn't dependent on what I do or don't do or who I am or who Susie jane is. His love is big just for me. I can obtain this love. I can take that and own it and have it and overflow in it. I desire that. I hunger and thirst for that. Oh his love is just washing over me so deeply. Its washing away the dirt from the hard journey. It washes away all my fears. It renews me and refreshes me. His love is abundant and nothing less. His love is enough always. When I'm broken sad angry happy-his love is enough. The diseased orphans widows hungry homeless raped broken -his love is still enough and deep enough to cover them. His love covers me.
I want to jump into that love-ha do a cannon ball in it and as I'm in the water bout to come up know that his love will never go away and even when I'm numb to it that it's still all around me to drink in and soak in!!
His love will never ever dry up. He rejoices in me-delights in me, loves me.
Grace is all around me. I'm a daughter of a king. What's his is mine. Jesus is mine. I press into him. More jesus and less of me.
Laura Beth Harbin
Its deeper than anyone even knows. Once i step into his love its uncomfortable because its new and different. I think i should step out but its not the same anymore so i step back in. As i get more comfortable there with my toes wet then i can go deeper to my ankles and so on and si forth. His love is deeper still. Once i think ive had it all he takes me deeper into his love.
His love isn't dependent on what I do or don't do or who I am or who Susie jane is. His love is big just for me. I can obtain this love. I can take that and own it and have it and overflow in it. I desire that. I hunger and thirst for that. Oh his love is just washing over me so deeply. Its washing away the dirt from the hard journey. It washes away all my fears. It renews me and refreshes me. His love is abundant and nothing less. His love is enough always. When I'm broken sad angry happy-his love is enough. The diseased orphans widows hungry homeless raped broken -his love is still enough and deep enough to cover them. His love covers me.
I want to jump into that love-ha do a cannon ball in it and as I'm in the water bout to come up know that his love will never go away and even when I'm numb to it that it's still all around me to drink in and soak in!!
His love will never ever dry up. He rejoices in me-delights in me, loves me.
Grace is all around me. I'm a daughter of a king. What's his is mine. Jesus is mine. I press into him. More jesus and less of me.
Laura Beth Harbin
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